Sidewalk Love Story

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 19:40:54 GMT

This is funny that I still update this ridiculous thing.
So yeah I have school Monday.
I have to work registration tomorrow and Saturday too.
And tomorrow I'm getting my hair done. I'm cutting it and dying it.
I don't know why.
Boys suck. Bye.

what the fuckkk

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 23:33:00 GMT

Okay I went to the denist this morning.
Bad news.
So then I came home and my report card came.
I got a 4.07. So I'm pleased with that.
Then I was going to go to Ahmet's but that didn't happen.
And I was supposed to go to Dmal's birthday but no one likes to drive me.
So all I wanted to do was lay down, eat my frozen snicker, and watch Garden State.
So I finally find Garden State in my brother's draw and its all scratched up and shit and wouldnt play so I got pissed.
But then I was like "oh well i still have my snickers"
But I opened the freezer and it was gone.
I was so mad.
Anyways I need to go on a diet.
Camp starts soon.
And I should really start my summer reading but nahh.
First softball game yesterday = lost.
Girls are fucking retarded. THey decide to like peg me with the ball instead of throwing it to first.
Thats about it.
And Monday I'm probably hanging out with Louis and we are going to watch Saw.
That should be fun.
Pz

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 04:26:36 GMT

Okay school is officially over.
I joined the gym? I got guns now.
I got my belly butten pierced.
I have been to the mall in over 2 months.
Kenny and I are broken up; I'm not sad that we did but its dissappointing when it's the shortest relationship in your life and the most meaningless.
Anyways, I'm healthy. I went to Alisha's a few days back. She cooked for all of us. And we watched Aladin for the first time. It was alright.
Then Louis and I went and jumped into her communities pool. It was cold.
I got pretty tan.
Camp starts soon. Yes I am the fifteen year old that still goes to summer camp. But I love it.
I decided I'm painting a mural on my wall. I haven't decided what yet but I'll figure it out.
I play softball now for a Northport team. They're so funny. Everyone randomly screams out the word "FUck" like 5 times in practice.
I just helped my brother rewrite his senior project on Go Ask Alice.
I have to say I really like writing. I enjoy it really as much as you can.
I really want a guy. Like it's weird.
I was never one of those girls that needed a guy to be complete but I don't know.
I'm not sure what else to write except this jounral is practicully dead but no one listens to me anymore.

yeahhh

Tue, 24 May 2005 22:22:04 GMT

Okay my horoscope says:

You've been tending to everyone else's needs, but there's romance in the air -- and with little or no effort on your part, you'll be able to enjoy some of it. If anyone has earned that right, it's you.

Yeah so Kenny asked me out. And we are going out. Even though school is like over.

Probably going to end this journal soon

Mon, 16 May 2005 23:38:17 GMT

Okay things are so much better.
Like purely, everything.
I played softball again. It wasn't as bad as I thought.
So today in geometry, we discussed like manipulated births.
It was really weird and quite confusing.
Like you get torn over whether or not to disturb human nature and manipulate the egg or leave it and allow a deadly disease overcome your child.
Anyways, I'm learning drums; this kid is teaching me.
I'd have to say, I suck, but Free periods have become so much funner.
School ends this Thursday. Which in fact is pretty ill.
I cannot believed I miss so much of this school year. It kinda sucks in a way but whatever.
Oh my Biology teacher is funny when she says vagina.
That's about it.
Oh and there's this kid who put a Slim Jim in my locker. And it smelt.
So we held a court trial, and we are in recess right now but its continuing tomorrow.
Anyways, today I was eating peanut M&M's and I threw one at Kenny's crotch. So he picked it up and threw it at the lockers so hard and the M&M broke but the peanut is still stuck to the locker.
So that's about it. I'll update later if I remember if anything else happened.

This is funny

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 00:39:05 GMT

I havent updated in a year or so.
I was hospitalized for a while.
Morphine was ill. Literally, it made me throw up.
I'm better. It's chill.
School is wack. All teachers are nimrods.
I don't know why I want this back.
I guess just to complain.
And the most complainable thing right now is..
Me not having a guy. Yeah so
I got a $5,000.00 bond for school next year; chill
I'm on medical for 'gym'; chiller
I get to take random days off; chillest.
I found $600.00 under my bed today. THat was pretty cool.
My bed is gone. My room is going to be cool.
I lost 25 lbs. I'm scrawny. And well, sick.
Okay bye.
Oh yeah, nymph is scooping now.
I want to go to Coldstone.

About school

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 01:59:23 GMT

So school in SBS has been okay.

Bio- the class i thought i was doing the worst in. but it mainly the one class i have the highest average. i really don't know much people in this class but theres this one communist kid whos pretty funny.
Geometry- is alright. another one of my good classes, although its pretty intimidating being with all like 10th graders and what not
Spanish- is the funniest class ever. But it's also the hardest. I have like a 90 average but thats still a B+. sucks but whatever
Humanities- yeah in general, i know nothing about the bible and the only thing holding me at a low A is memorization of bible versus.
English- i thought i was doing amazing in this class. i have a low A but i thought i would be like doing awesome. the recent assignment is to memorize a 4-5 minute peice of literature and being able to recite it word for word. im doing it on the perks of being a wallflower but how is this helping me in english?
Art is over so now I have jewish islamic studies. And i love the class but im way to over-opininated about situations concerning Osama Bin Laden and stuff like that.
I got out of study hall and have a free period now so thats good.
Thats mostly it so far. I've really been liking it, its just pretty tough to keep up with things.

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 23:09:42 GMT

Yeah so I'm in love with this one kid, my friend is a model who self conciousally makes me feel alone, and I absolutely live for free periods blasting streetlight manifesto in the dorms.

yes it is thy

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 02:31:00 GMT

I love school. Like no joke. The only bad part is not knowing anybody.

These are things that went right for me//people I met and are awesome:

Making varsity volleyball
Volleyball scrimmage, first high school game ever. 100 % serving.
Free periods = going to baskin robins//7-11
Dining rooms food
My bio teacher is jaimican and awesome
Geometry teacher is the softball coach
Getting my study hall changed too bad I wont be with Will anymore, he was nice
Meeting some girls like Alex and Rachelle
boys, boys, boys.
locker buddy//bff//good smelling = lou. haha
playing soccer with Derek and swimming?! lol
listening to Ukoo (spelling) and these other kids having there guitar//bass//metallica and music sessions in Gabeline
Having Ms. Morales as spanish teacher. "if you want to start with me be damn sure you have the ambition to back it up" in a puetro rican accent. oh jeez.
Aleesha= nicest person ever.
Me = not having a workjob, especially on dining crew!
Hanging out at soccer and football games
Allana = coolest person ever.

And things that suck:

dress code
being in classes with older kids..intimidating
having no friends
chapel//worship sessions
days when it rains out
homework

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 05:59:16 GMT

Today my dad took my to restaraunt depot to buy food in bulk. Its on Ocean Avenue and for some reason I just laughed really loud. The depot itself is very dangerous. Men of forklifts try to run you over.

I went to orientation yesterday. It was pretty cool, I got my ID and an e-mail address and like went and looked at stuff. I got my schedule and things too. Schedule = no electives. Bio Honors, Geometry for 1 and 2 semester, then Computer taking place of that 3 and 4. Spanish, English, Foundation Arts, Humanities, and study hall for 1 and 2 and Jewish and Islamic Studies 3 and 4. Its pretty confusing since its a rotating schedule, and that also fits in chapel everyday except for Wednesday because that is worship service and on Friday's when I have counciling groups or an assembly.

I've had volleyball everyday since Monday. The gym is very hot, temperature wise. And we got these nifty shirts, well actually we got like 5 because we need to wear them everyday. So far, only like 7 girls have showed up. But more and more keep coming since boarding students are now arriving. Everyone is like super nice. Like, they actually come up, and shake your hand and introduce themselves and you actually have a conversation.

Ugh so school really starts on Wednesday with a full schedule. Then Friday I have got to stay there till 8:30 for class challenges and summer reading tests and stuff like that. Then Saturday I have practice, brunch, then field trips. But I also have a volleyball tournament too. This all kinda sucks because my cousins are coming down that weekend and it would have been cool if I got to see them. </3

I finally finished my essay and got some clothes for school. I think I'm pretty much ready as I'll ever be. I guess I'm just really nervous. Thats mostly it about school.

Fall season softball starts next Sunday. That should actually be really fun. I just really want to play ball. Thats it. I also broke my thumb. Now thats it.

This was like my school entry and the last one because of school. So long everyone.

Egh.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 06:35:10 GMT

Summer was not what I expected.
School Starts soon.
I'm almost done with my essay.
Its not that I miss school,
I just want to get all new stuff then go for like a week then have it be summer again.
I don't miss camp either.
I just can't wait for how awesome next year will be.
I've been thinking about getting a red hoodie.
And drive around to people's house on a bike
with ET in a basket on the bike.
That would be cool.
Softball starts again tomorrow.
I have to go to Atlantis Marine Wold Aquarium Saturday.
To train seals.
Other than that my room is turning out to be plain.
I got rid of my bunker bed.
Computer is being cleaned out for the beginning ofschool.
I think I'll get rid of m DDR during school because I wont get anything done.
My walls are the same...
And my closet, things seem to be multiplying everytime I open the door.
Which is pretty cool.
Other than that Pita got a new car.
Its sick.
And since his school starts at 1 and ends at 4 maybe he will drive and pick me up from school.
Especially since I have school on Saturday Sept 11
Which is kinda sad because it is Sept. 11 and I'm supposed to be going to a wedding which would give me an oppurtunity to see my relatives but...
school is gay like that.
Adios.

survey, more like surGAY

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 00:30:32 GMT

-[ basic ]-
[x] name: Claire
[x] nicknames: bear or little kinzie
[x] gender: female
[x] birthday: february 15
[x] height: 5'4"?
[x] hair color: light brown//blonde?
[x] eye color: brown
[x] do you wear glasses or contacts: yes
[x] do you have braces: negative
[x] is your hair long or short: medioker?
[x] where were you born: stony brook, ny
[x] zodiac sign: aquarious
[x] how many languages do you know: 1 and a half?
[x] bad habit: some
[x] piercings you have: ears // belly butten
[x] piercings you want: industrial
[x] tattoos you have: none
[x] tattoos you want: not sure, a sleeve perhaps
[x] today's date: august 16th
[x] the time: 7:51 pm

-[ family ]-
[x] mother's name: tracy
[x] father's name: peter
[x] brothers name: pete
[x] sisters name: olivia
[x] favorite aunt: aunt kerry?
[x] favorite uncle: uncle donald
[x] favorite grandparent: pop R.I.P
[x] worst relative: nope
[x] best relative: nana
[x] do you get along with your parents: most of the time
[x] does anyone in your family understand you? my brother i guess

-[ pets ]-
[x] do you have any pets: yes
[x] what are their names: grace and bob

-[ school ]-
[x] are you still in school: yes
[x] did you drop out: no
[x] favorite grade: none yet
[x] least favorite grade: 7th
[x] favorite teacher: d'angelone
[x] least favorite teacher: dematteo or howe
[x] favorite subject: school is school
[x] least favorite subject: jewish and islamic studies
[x] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: free catering
[x] play(ed) any sports on the school's team: field hockey, volleyball, softball, and sailing coming up.
[x] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: honor society, and keri and i would sometimes go to lego robotics club..
[x] are/were you popular: haha
[x] favorite memory: good times

-[ favorites ]-
[x] number: 4
[x] clothing brand: volcom fits me well or else fruit of the loom?
[x] shoes: DVS or flip flops
[x] tv show: csi//family guy and sometimes get a good laugh out of the assistant too
[x] vegetable: cucumber (salad)
[x] fruit : mango or kiwi
[x] movie: lots
[x] magazine: urban outfitters
[x] actor: jared leto
[x] actress: over -rated?
[x] candy: 9 cavities?
[x] gum: whatever
[x] scent: addias moves
[x] candy bar: snickers?
[x] ice cream flavor: no ice cream
[x] color: brown and orange?
[x] season: autumn
[x] holiday: valentines day <3
[x] type of music: a nice variety
[x] thing in your room: my walls or sketchbooks
[x] place to be: camp </3 [x] radio station: mp3 [x] overall food: chinese [x] fast food: mcdonalds [x] shape: ? [x] time of day: night [x] country: austrailia [x] state: new york? [x] boys name: i dont know [x] girls name: beau [x] mall: smith haven [x] shampoo: hemp [x] board game: cranium [x] swear word: fuck [x] month: february -[ whats the first thing that comes to mind when you hear ]- [x] eminem: bleach [x] dog: poop [x] hot: cold [x] nsync: hehe [x] orange: olive green [x] fuck: sex [x] black: africa [x] rainbow: gay pride [x] cherry: this poster that was in our locker room that said 'the wild cherry's' [x] cucumber: salad [x] shark: that i want to see the movie open waters [x] lifehouse: darnkness falls [x] bat: scared [x] leather: belt [x] whip: it [x] america: war [x] water: camp [x] volcano: hawaiian people yelling and running -[ this or that ]- [x] rock or rap: rock [x] rock or pop: rock [x] rock or r&b: rock [x] rock or metal: probably rock [x] rap or pop: rap [x] rap or r&b: r&b [x] rap or metal: metal? [x] pop or r&b: r&b [x] linkin park or limp bizkit: neither [x] tool or korn: tool [x] selena or jennifer lopez: none [x] hot or cold: cold [x] winter or summer: summer [x] spring or fall: autumn [x] shakira or britney: shakira [x] icp or eminem: icp [x] kittie or garbage: ? [x] mtv or vh1: fuse [x] buffy or angel: no [x] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: negative [x] football or basketball: football [x] black or white: black [x] orange or red: orange [x] yellow or green: green [x] purple or pink: pink [x] hot topic or pac sun: pacsun [x] inside or outside: not sure :-/ [x] weed or alcohol: nothanks [x] tattoos or piercings: piercings [x] prep or punk: being yourself? [x] slut or whore: difference? -[ private life ]- [x] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: no [x] do you have a crush: yes [x] do you love anyone right now: not sure [x] have you ever been in love: possibly? [x] how many people broke your heart: 0 or 1? [x] do you go by looks or personality: if i like a person by the way they look i obviously dont know them so therefore not going for them [x] ever kiss a friend: yes [x] so moving along..do you smoke? no [x] do you smoke weed: no [x] beer good or beer bad: little beer [x] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: fuck no [x] are you a virgin: yes -[ would you ever ]- [x] bungee jump: yes [x] sky dive: absolutely [x] swim with dolphins: been there [x] scuba dive: done that [x] go rock climbing: sure [x] eat shit for $1,000,000: whos shit? [x] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: no? egh.. [x] cross-dress: i used to be a tomboy [x] lie to the police: possibly [x] run from the police: happened before [x] lie to your parents: ..and will happen again [x] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: no [x] be an exotic dancer: i hear it pays well [x] walk out of a restaurant without paying: if i didn't have any money -[ have you ever ]- [x] been to michigan: no [x] gotten really REALLY wasted: buzzed [x] gone to jail or juvi: no [x] skateboarded: yup [x] stolen anything: no [x] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: of course [x] broke a beer bottle: yes [x] gotten into a bar: hell yeah [x] kissed someone of the same sex: yes no tongue though [x] gone on a road trip: i guess you could call it that [x] been to a concert: mhm [x] been to another country: bahamas? [x] talked back to an adult: unfortunatly..yes [x] got pulled over: i wasnt driving [x] broke a law: yep [x] given money to a homeless person: yeah [x] tried to kill yourself: nope [x] cried to get out of trouble: all the time, i'm a girl [x] kissed a friend's brother or sister: don't remeber [x] kissed a brother or sister's friend: ughh.. yes -[ opinions ]- [x] what do you think...about pop music: not my kinda thing [x] about boy bands: too graphic [x] about flag burning: not sure [x] about rock/metal music: its good [x] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: getting out of college? [x] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: hopefully all of my friends now. and all the people i meet this year at my new school -[ what did you do ]- [x] last birthday went to: had a party [x] last weekend: went out with some kids [x] christmas: stayed home [x] thanksgiving: stayed home [x] last nite: movies and got pushed in a pool with all my clothes on -[ the last ]- [x] thing you ate: chinese for dinner [x] thing you drank: coke...what else? [x] thing you wore: pajamas from last night and im still wearing them [x] place you went: movies then to briannas [x] thing you got pierced/tattooed: belly butten [x] person you saw: sister [x] person you kissed: wow i can't remember, thats sad OH WAIT... francis [x] person you talked to: sister [x] song you heard: the queers - dont back down -[ now ]- [x] what are you eating: nothing [x] what are you drinking: coke..haha [x] what are you wearing: sweatpants and a sweatshirt [x] any shoes on: no [x] hair: straightened it then put it up? [x] listening to: cinema beer nuts -[ yes or no ]- [x] are you a vegetarian: hah no [x] do you like cows: yes, my dad owns a butcher shop. [x] are you a bitch: for the most part...yes [x] are you artistic: in a sense [x] are you a fast runner: in sports not in running in general like track or anything [x] can you ski: mhm [x] are you british: no? [x] do you want to spear britney: yes but not circa '99 [x] did you ever give barbie a haircut: at the throat [x] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: mayyebe..not [x] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made alice in wonderland: i guess [x] are you fat: no [x] are you skinny:..and boobless: yes [x] are you short: not for my age [x] are you tall: not really [x] do you own a hot pink shirt: yeah, a finch shirt and a hairspray one [x] how about orange pants: no [x] are you evil: when i want to be [x] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: yeah, i used to have one. makes an awesome yearbook pic. [x] do you like marilyn manson: im not into his music but i respect him as person especially from 'bowling for columbine' [x] do you shop at hot topic: sometimes for earings. otherwise.. no -[ random questions ]- [x] if you could be any animal, what would you be: a kangaroo? [x] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life,what would it be?: COKE [x] do you remember any of your dreams: a lot [x] do you dream in color or black and white: color with black and white? [x] do you admit when you need help with a problem: yes [x] can people read you like a book: if its the bible [x] whats your biggest fear: lots [x] do you talk a lot: yeah except when im sleeping [x] are you afraid of clowns: no [x] do you like spiders: no [x] how about grape kool-aid: yes [x] can you drive: not sure. but motorbikes//quads and stuff like that i can [x] are you spoiled: kinda [x] are you anti-social: not really [x] now that this is over, what are you going to do?: not sure? read?

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 21:37:03 GMT

I've been updating a lot lately. I suppose I'm just trying to get out of reading. But its not that bad. Only like 50 more pages left in Lord of the Flies, then like a 150 page book about Hiroshima and I need to write a 2 page thesis essay on that concerning the theme and what not.
Okay so Saturday I went to Keri's. We hung around for a while. Played some DDR. Showered. Liz came over and we went and got pizza. Then went to a Ducks game. We tried to sign them up and say it was there birthdday but the guy said he had enough people. Liz goes "too bad its our birthday (her and Keri) and we are twins.."
and I go, "yeah and they'll make out for you too!" I always have bad timing. Then we hung out with Lisa for a while which was straight. She gave us tatoos. My sleeve came out sick.
Next day Liz left at 8? and Keri and I woke up around 12-ish because Brianna called. We picked up Liz and went to Briannas. From there we went to the movies with Francis*. We saw Alien and Predator. By far, one of the worst movies I have ever seen. I didn't really watch it though. Didn't understand which was the alien and which was the predator. Went back to Brianna's where we swam in our clothes?
Got in a lot of trouble. For being 'inconsiderate'? Whatever not allowed out of the house.
Going to see the Village sometime this week with Brianna, Cecilia, and Francis because I promised. And helping Keri make a dress.
Hopefully my brother gets his new car and we run away soon. I really need to get away. Okay long and pointless entry. whatever.

</3

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 21:11:31 GMT

Camp is over. Im so sad.
We got in a boat crash in a hurricane.
$1,000 worth of damage? Hah!
The saddest part was either..
getting burned by acid
-OR-
Francis not even saying goodbye to me.
:-/ I really like him.
I'm fucking retarded though and now camp is over.
Can't wait for next summer. Especially IC.
By the way I am at Keri's right now.
ANd Liz is here.
We are going to Keri's aunts house for food.
Then the Ducks game in the the storm?
w00t.
<|3 short entry. update later.

By the way, no more Friends Only. thats for suckerss.

So

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 20:22:43 GMT

So last time since I updated...

Been going to High Performance Sailing with Brianna. Awesome. Met cool people there. And boyysss.<3

Yeah and did anyone know that alcohol stays in your hair for over 6 months? Pshh... because I sure didn't. Yeah I'll probably see you all in Smithtown after I get kicked out of SBS.

CAMP IS OVER TOMORROW!!

and so I update

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 02:25:39 GMT

My journal is officialy dead.
But since the last time I updated ...
I had a few tournaments and caught a few games as well. Brothers 17 birthday//car crash mumbo jumbo. 4th of July was pretty sick. I've haven't done anything really exciting just hanging aroun with friends. But this week I started SBSC. Stony Book Sailing Camp. And I'd hafta to say I've met some cool people there. We usually just joke around go sailing//tubing//swimmng. I just haven't been aware of what has been going on because I got a phone call saying my Grandpa is in the hospital getting all these heart surgeries. I just lost my other grandpa a litte bit over a year a go and I'm just not ready to lose someone else.
</3

Fri, 21 May 2004 00:54:38 GMT

Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.

::vomits::

Sun, 09 May 2004 04:36:30 GMT

"...I hope a big fat black dyke takes her two finger and shoves them up your ass, not to scare you or anything"

Friends Only

Mon, 03 May 2004 21:12:10 GMT

Splintered piece of glass falls, in the seat, gets caught
These broken windows, open locks, reminders of the youth we lost
In trying so hard to look away from you
we followed white lines to the sunset
I crash my car everyday the same way

Time to let this pass
     the time it takes, the time it takes to let go
Time runs through our veins.
     it starts and stops and starts and stops again
We don't stand a chance in this threadbare time
     the time it takes, the time it takes to let go
Time to let this pass
      the time it takes, the time it takes to let go

Staring at the setting sun
No reason to come back again
The twilight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done

I don't want to feel this way forever
A dead letter marked return to sender

The broken watch you gave me turns into a compass
It's two hands still point to the same time 12:03, our last goodbye

So push the seats back a little further
I can see the headlights coming
So push the seats back a little further
Roll the windows down and take a breath
I can see the headlights coming
They paint the world in red and broken glass

Staring at the setting sun
No reason to come back again
The twilight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done

I don't want to feel this way forever
A dead letter marked return to sender

The spinning hubcaps set the tempo, for the music of the broken window
The Cameras on and the cameras click
We open up the lens and kiss the...

Staring at the setting sun
No reason to come back again
The twilight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done

I don't want to feel this way forever

The lights are on and the cameras click
We open up the lens to broken glass

Staring at the setting sun Understanding
No reason to come back again In a Crash
The twilight world in blue and white In a Car Crash
The needle and the damage done I'll Never Understand

I don't want to feel this way forever Understanding
(In a Car Crash!)A dead letter marked return to sender In a Car Crash
In a Crash

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